When I started at the GTU after leaving Hebrew College, I knew that I would be doing something transgressive, being an out bisexual and transsexual at a Theology School might get me in trouble with some of the people. I was right but things sorted themselves nicely with apologies and understanding. I feel like my brain was playing catchup with the last semester all the way through intersession. I didn't write much over the past semester, and I apologize for that. At the time I had such grand ideas of what my experience would look like, and to a degree everything fit. Yet, I also did not take into account my two other jobs, and my family (without whose support I would crumble). Now that I am taking a smaller class load, I will be more forthcoming with my current work.
I began second semester classes at the GTU last Monday morning. My first class, a required Ancient/Medieval Jewish Civilization course looks like it will kick my but with the question of modern ideas around ancient texts and the ruptures that the commentaries cause, and my second a Politics of Translation class that has me quaking in my boots - in a good way. I just registered for the Davennen’ Leadership Training Institute VIII: Week One after being accepted into the ALEPH training program for the next four year cohort in the last weekend of July through the first weekend of August. I am constantly amazed by all the really great things in my life around my Jewish Education.
Teaching in Jewish Education also nourishes my soul, just as learning does. In fact, my class at BSPM just participated in a student led service, almost unheard of for 9 and 10 year old's at most schools. They got on the bima, prayed, led services and had a good time and I couldn't stop kvelling. These windows into l'dor v'dor are what I like most. When the students get the most out of their learning through practical application, and they can apply what they learn in class to leading a service, visiting the sick, or just being a mentsch.
I feel like the more I learn and teach, the closer I am to being a rabbinic student and eventually a rabbi, rather than the student who wants to study rabbinics someday. I know where I am going from here, out of the "Tohu-Va-Vohu" and into the Jewish Education that will feed my nefesh, or soul, and be an integral part of my life going forward.